tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-87133690715284745632024-03-13T03:24:37.147-07:00Berean MusingsKenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.comBlogger34125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-89062172373793421712013-02-28T08:47:00.005-08:002013-02-28T08:47:59.775-08:00Red Dawn Part two the Mt Rushmore Idea <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I have to say I am kind of intrigued with this spin on Gun rights as being
we need a Citizen Army to protect us from the Government . Here is my take on it
. First of all it does seem a wee bit paranoid . But putting that aside lets
take a look at how it might function . First of all I must assume there would be
a clear and decisive reason why such a Army would be needed . I'm sure there
might be any number of reasons the entire citizen population of the USA would
decide to uniformly take up arms against the Government . For the sake of
working this all out lets say that once again the Government decided to go dry
and beer was off the Shelves . This in my opinion would certainly constitute a
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So now we have our emergency , what happens next ? I suppose there must be
some sort of Comand Center . Some place where the Citizen Army can use to get
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I would propose Mt Rushmore to be honest . Its
accessible and yet remote , in case of a counter attack by the Government forces
the Civilian army could hole up under Jefferson's nose or hold it hostage . No matter clearly there would be some need of command and control
..not only a well organized campaign , but one that can easily communicate with
each other quickly ( facebook comes to mind ) . </div>
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, have such a infrastructure in place what next ? What Targets would this Ad Hoc
Group of Civilians want to assault ? would the attacks be coordinated and have a
singular objective ? Or would they be indiscriminate ? Who would be the leaders
of this group ? what sort of discipline would they require from the group .
Would they have to pay at Krogers for supplies ? Or would they " borrow" what
they needed ? Some Creative militia groups in the USA have actually turned to bank robbery and Armored Car Heists . Anyway a Civilian army would have to find some way to pay for its costs .</div>
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As I said I don't think this has been very well thought out . The reality
is we would have spontaneous groups running around in different Geographical
areas each claiming they were patriots angry with some slight or procedure or
law they decided did not suit their needs . In short Anarchy ....The Red Dawn
Myth . each group of malcontented men and women would have their own individual
targets which may or not be similar to the Individual rights of the Militia Next
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I can imagine a Scenario of the Northern Idaho Militia filled with
disgruntled Steelhead Fishermen , attacking the Western Columbia Militia largely
based on the Commercial fisherman of the Oregon Coast . Some Militias would be
attacking black targets , some Muslim targets . There would probably be a group
who targeted The post office and even a misguided group who confused UPS with a
Government group and waged war against UPS . And imagining travelling Cross
country ...every Militia Jurisdiction would have a stop point , armed guards
interrogating you . One thing is certain if you are driving across Country in
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Without a Command and control and discipline combatants it would be no
better than Gang violence . And who would be the ones who suffer the most in
this ? Innocent men , women and children . </div>
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"Militia are hopelessly inadequate as a means of defending a free country.
While "people's war" militia-based strategies have been employed to wear down
invading armies in numerous countries over the past century, not one of those
countries (Vietnam, Afghanistan, Somalia, Iraq, southern Lebanon, etc) is
"free". This is not an accident of history. Freedom is the product of orderly
democratic governance and the rule of law. Popular militias are overwhelming
likely to foster not democracy or the rule of law, but warlordism, tribalism and
civil war. In Lebanon, Pakistan, the Democratic Republic of the Congo, Mali,
Colombia, the Palestinian Territories and elsewhere, we see that militias of
armed private citizens rip apart weak democratic states in order to prey upon
local populations in authoritarian sub-states or fiefdoms. Free states are
defended by standing armies, not militias, because free states enjoy the consent
of the governed, which allows them to maintain effective standing armies. Like
every other free country apart from Costa Rica, the United States has a standing
army in times of peace, and has since 1791, when the founding fathers realised a
standing army would be necessary to fight the irregular popular militias of the
continent's Native American peoples. (Guess who won?) " </div>
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Lets be quite honest about this ..we have the best Military in the world
not only because they have the best in weaponry , but because of Discipline and
training . So what happens in the Civilian Army when the Civilians decide they
are not being represented in the Command Structure ? </div>
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Seriously using this " we need Civilians " to protect us from the
Government falls into the really silly category , how about having citizens
simply exercise their right to vote for the candidate of their choice ? How
about having Citizens who study the facts instead of make them up . </div>
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And one more thing . I am a Christian and I believe there is a Bibical
approach to this that is being ignored. Im not sure how we can Use the Bible to
support our anti Abortion sentiments and then use the Constitution to support
our so called Gun rights . but that's just me . Oh yes , I do find it very
disturbing that the Right side of the Aisle has now started using the Genocide
of the Native American Indians as a Argument for Gun Rights .... Ironic and
Shameful . </div>
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Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-26430253390424458752013-02-27T19:19:00.001-08:002013-02-27T19:19:47.984-08:00The Red Dawn Myth part 1 <div>
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Recently I have been seeing a disturbing pattern of using the Genocide of
the Native American Indians as a reason for Law abiding Citizens to Have guns .
On the surface this seems a lot like Using the Atomic Bomb on Hiroshima as a
Public Relations campaign to gain the Nobel Peace prize . </div>
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After the responsible adult person in me stops laughing at the cynical and
yet strangely humorous argument , another part of the responsible adult in me is
seething . How can such a short argument complete with visual ...be so wrong on
so many different levels that it almost overwhelms the intelligent person into
believing it ? This whole campaign of using the Genocide of the American Indian
as a pretext for arguing against responsible gun control is cynical and
reprehensible . The only glimmer of good that can come from it would be perhaps
the tacit confession that our Native American Policy was flawed in the first
place . </div>
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I Guess the basic reason why this is popular is because some people want to
believe it and they also failed American History . </div>
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Lets take a look at the whole Idea here : </div>
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First of all the implication is if the Indians had of been able to keep
their weapons they would not have been destroyed by the American Government . Is
this even close to being Historically accurate . In a word no. The Native
Americans were defeated because they were not aligned as a homogeneous group .
Essentially the Native Americans operated as independent Militia groups
dispersed through out the USA . Often even fighting amount themselves for
competing interests and objectives ,You might say reminiscent of the Civil War .
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The other implication is the US Government is trying to take weapons away
from Citizens and well they are not . Responsible lawmakers and Citizens Are
urging for some control over the purchase and ownership of Guns , and are also
questioning the use of Automatic Weapons . </div>
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The whole argument becomes a Straw man Argument ....It begins with " If the
Government takes away our guns we cannot have a citizen army to defeat the
government " IT falls apart when you realize that in none of the
recommendations to curb Gun violence is the Government planning to take Guns
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At stake are the lives of thousands of American Citizens opposing
potentially Millions of dollars in Profit for the Gun and Ammunition Companies .
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So now the Gun Lobby is suggesting the real purpose of the 2nd Amendment
was to provide for a Citizen Army to rally to the defence of the country if the
Government went bad . This is a real Air Ball ...Does the constitution make any
provision for such a citizen revolt ? what conditions does it set forth for such
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The Gun Lobby would have us belive that American citizens have the right to
engage in violence against the United States' armed forces and state or
municipal police forces, whenever they decide that governments are usurping
their powers. By Pushing this agenda the Gun Lobby is suggesting that Americans
have a right a right to insurrection. There is no such right in the American
constitutional order. It is illegal for American citizens to decide on their own
to attack law-enforcement agents or soldiers, regardless of whether they believe
them to be acting on behalf of the "arbitrary power of rulers". Here is the deal
In America, the government is chosen at the ballot box, and our representatives
make the laws and execute them. For the Gun Lobby to imply that instead of this
Choice we have as an option insurrection is ..well how do you sugar coat treason
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So lets recap up to this point : </div>
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1: The Government of the USA is not taking away your guns .</div>
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2: The Native Americans were not defeated because we took away their
weapons . They were defeated because we devalued them , and picked them off
tribe by tribe . </div>
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3. The Purpose of the 2nd Amendment was not to create a Citizen Army to
protect citizens from its own Government . </div>
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4. Our Government is changed the same way it has been for over 200 years by
well informed people voting for representatives of the people who make laws and
execute them </div>
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TO be fair I really don't want to be in this argument ..I am a Christian
and as a Christian I believe the bible suggests an entirely different world view
than the one promoted by the world when it it comes to guns , wars and self
defence . But the issue for me is the Christians who are weighing in on the gun
discussion don't want to include the Bible as a foundation for their arguments
..and instead have opted for the Constitution of the USA for their foundation .
When it comes to guns apparently the Constitution Trumps the Bible . </div>
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Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-4983015640952027952012-01-19T20:26:00.000-08:002012-01-19T20:28:58.376-08:00<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-qWIzT2xBGk4/Txjtf53IogI/AAAAAAAAAO4/AQRSeoH0XJ4/s1600/Downtown%2BPortland001.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 296px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-qWIzT2xBGk4/Txjtf53IogI/AAAAAAAAAO4/AQRSeoH0XJ4/s400/Downtown%2BPortland001.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5699566460801163778" /></a><br />This my first post over here in some time , I mean some long time . I had decided I was getting too grumpy , too critical of others and not spending enough time trying to change the person I have the very best chance of changing , namely me.<br /><br />But lately I have been noticing a disturbing trend And at least I want to shed some light on it perhaps a different light . <br /><br />Its not unusual that I am often reffered to as a " Social Justice " Christian , and when its said it is not being said as a compliment . There seems to be a movement afoot that is trying to discourage Christians from helping the poor and working for the rights of the marginalized , and weak. <br /><br />The people who are doing this find a few scriptures that to them seem to imply God is not interested in the poor and then using the Bible as their moral touch point they use these verses to promote what I would call the gosple of shelfishness. <br /><br />One I hear frequently is when Jesus said " the poor you will have with you always ". John 12:8 <br /><br />I Guess the assumption here is that Jesus is advocating world wide poverty ...I think that is the wrong assumption . First remember who Jesus was talking too , it wasn't to 5000 people gathered on a mountain it was said to Judas who was preparing to betray Jesus . It is also from the Old testament , the complete verse comes from Deuteronomy 15:11:<br /><strong>There will always be poor people in the land. Therefore I command you to be openhanded toward your fellow Israelites who are poor and needy in your land.</strong>I think Gods instruction here is pretty clear ...Help the poor and notice God does not say Judge them to see if they are truly in need . <br /><br />Now lately I have been hearing people quote from 1st Thessalonians 3:10 " βThe one who is unwilling to work shall not eat.β Now the assumption here is if a person is not working don't share with Him. <br /><br />But is that what this verse is really saying ?<br /><br /><br />The context is the witness that Paul and his Ministry group provided to the Thessalonians ...Paul is really saying you folks should consider the way we have behaved while we were amoung you ...we all pitched in as believers ..our rules for our selves were straight forward , if a member of our Ministry team did not help witht the work ... ( the work of the Lord ) he should not eat . Paul then goes on to say that is what we expect of you . You claim ot be Christians now act like it ! <br /><br /><strong>We hear that some among you are idle and disruptive. They are not busy; they are busybodies. Such people we command and urge in the Lord Jesus Christ to settle down and earn the food they eat. And as for you, brothers and sisters, never tire of doing what is good. </strong> Ist Thessalonians 3: 11-12 <br /><br />There you have it the Message here is not to condemn people in the world for not working ..the message here is to tell the servants of God to get busy ! <br />The Context of this verse was a challenge to those already in the Christian community. The principle is sound as a guideline to affirm that every member of the Body is a servant of our Lord Jesus, committed to obedient service. However, to make it a rule, especially one so unqualified and expressed to those outside the community of faith is not only absurd, but an abuse of Scripture.<br /><br />To me this is just another example of why we need to read our Bibles. There is one Scripture I often use as a litmus test if you will to the veracity of Scriptual interpertation . It comes from James 3:17 : <strong>But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.</strong>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-60183846583656690432009-07-11T21:22:00.000-07:002009-07-11T21:31:41.904-07:00The Prime Directive<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SllnJSjDsHI/AAAAAAAAAHo/o56VfYOdkR4/s1600-h/_MG_8046.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 267px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SllnJSjDsHI/AAAAAAAAAHo/o56VfYOdkR4/s400/_MG_8046.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5357426641029279858" /></a><br />" the Church exists for nothing else , but to draw men unto Christ ...If they are not doing that all the Cathedrals , clergy , missions , sermons , EVEN THE BIBLE ITSELF , are simply a waste of time. " , God became man for no other purpose , It is even doubtful , you know whether the whole universe was created for any other purpose " C.S. Lewis <br /><br /><br /><br />When I first accepted Christ I had a vision of Christians surrounding themselves with walls and ramparts building strong fortifications against the world , and raining arrows and pouring hot oil on the people clamouring to break into their fortress ...I also saw Christ coming back and tearing these walls down , filling in the moats the oil was no longer hot but instead fragrant and healing ....<br /><br />Of course I was a young Christian in those days ...Saved by Grace and passionate to understand more about God ...I devoured books and commentaries ...I read the Bible daily and went through a list of Christians Writers that included Chuck Swindol , Charles Stanley , Max LUcado , Phillip Yancey , Tony Compolo , RC Sproul , John McArthur , Dietrich Bonhoeffer , Francis Schaeffer ... and many many more ...and a curious thing happened ...I moved away from grace ...I began to fancy myself quite the Bible scholar and I even had a Hebrew Greek Study Bible to prove it ...I found my self wondering why more CHristians weren't as well read as I was ...I was always a little bit startled to find older more mature Christians who seemed to struggle with finding Ephesians , or Titus in the Bibles ....I began to judge my walk with God with my vast knowledge of things Bible ...I began to involve myself in meaningless and trivial arguments about trivial and meaningless minutia ...I was in short overlooking the forest for the trees ...A year ago God had enough of that ...He moved us to a Church where I was hit square in the face with Worship and Praise ...in hindsight I can see that I moved from a sitting church , to a doing church ...We praise Him in music , Song and dance , we have genuine fellowship , we accept each other as Christ accepts us , with spots and stripes , with worn out luggage , ties and tee shirts ...We are encouraged to read the scriptures , we are encouraged to pray ...but always with the purpose of loving Gods Children ....all of them .<br /><br />In my past I would keep a running " debate " with the Pastor preaching , Here in the new terrority God placed me in there was none of that ...each word from all of our pastors and speakers ...was appointed to find its way into my heart to set me free from the bondage of the walls I had built up myself separating myself from other Christians . My Pedantry , and Scholarship had no meaning in a sanctuary filled with Love and Grace .... <br /><br />Gods Kingdom is here and there ...it is heaven ward and it is inside each of us ...I believe true Christianity , finds its expression in accepting others as Christ has accepted us ...there are no exams ...our faith is not measured by our knowledge of the difference between Armenianism and Calvinism , between Pre Mil and post Mil , mature Christians which I am so thankful for express their faith in Love ...Love does not separate , love does not hold a record of wrongs , love is patient and long suffering ...How can you say you love God , when you do not love His people ...all of them .<br /><br />It now seems to me if your time spent in study of God through the Scriptures , if your time spent in front of a pulpit ,( if you do so) leads you to believe that fewer and fewer men/women are " true believers " ...that if your time in private fellowship with God makes you hard as flint , if it separates you from mankind , from your brothers and sisters in Christ ...if you spend your time studying the scriptures in a effort to separate yourself from the common and the less " committed " followers of Christ . you need to close up the book , get on your knees and ask God for forgiveness ....The Christian call is one of action , not meditation ...while many religions have set themselves up as centers for personal enlightenment , the Christian faith was one of going out ...moving boldly into the world , not fortifying itself against the world ...<br /><br />Paul was quite clear ...Christ and Christ Crucified is the main course of our faith all else is garnish . I Believe there are seasons in our Christian life , and all have their merit ...I have gone through seasons of study and solitary introspection , a season of vanity , a season of grace , a season of Sovereignty , but all of these should lead me to Faith expressing itself in love ...and how do we show God how much we love Him ? <br />by Loving His people , by loving His children despite their faults , their imperfections , their theology or lack <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />IF WE ONLY HAVE LOVE <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />If we only have love<br />Then tomorrow will dawn<br />And the days of our years<br />Will rise on that morn<br />If we only have love<br />To embrace without fears<br />We will kiss with our eyes<br />We will sleep without tears<br />If we only have love<br />With our arms open wide<br />Then the young and the old<br />Will stand at our side<br />If we only have love<br />Love that's falling like rain<br />Then the parched desert earth<br />Will grow green again<br />If we only have love<br />For the hymn that we shout<br />For the song that we sing<br />Then we'll have a way out<br />If we only have love<br />We can reach those in pain<br />We can heal all our wounds<br />We can use our own names<br />If we only have love<br />We can melt all the guns<br />And then give the new world<br />To our daughters and sons<br />If we only have love<br />Then Jerusalem stands<br />And then death has no shadow<br />There are no foreign lands<br />If we only have love<br />We will never bow down<br />We'll be tall as the pines<br />Neither heroes nor clowns<br />If we only have love<br />Then we'll only be men<br />And we'll drink from the Grail<br />To be born once again<br />Then with nothing at all<br />But the little we are<br />We'll have conquered all time<br />All space, the sun, and the stars. <br /><br /><br />Jaques Brel <br /><br /><br /><br />1 Corinthians 13<br />The Way of Love<br />If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-49514351717922249922009-04-03T10:01:00.000-07:002009-04-03T10:05:52.253-07:00Life is a fairway ( reprint from Face book )<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SdZB5X-gwBI/AAAAAAAAAHY/Za4aSYFCuKY/s1600-h/Mt+Juliet+Golf++1001032.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 267px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SdZB5X-gwBI/AAAAAAAAAHY/Za4aSYFCuKY/s400/Mt+Juliet+Golf++1001032.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5320512463729377298" /></a><br />Yesterday for the first time in at least 3 years I went golfing ..It was a wonderful Spring day , four men brought together in Gods purposeful way. Golf is a game that engages all the senses , the budding trees , the flags fluttering in the distance the sound of the ball going into the cup, the taste of fresh mud as your wedge cleaves into the soil , the smell of sun lotion and Ben Gay , The camaraderie was enjoyable , each person cheering each other on , and some good natured kidding and gamesmanship . Although the Starter Pistol gag was a little extreme. But considering this is the South I am blessed it wasn't a shotgun . <br /><br />My only regret was the game I had planned to play remained in my mind and not on the fairways . When I was much younger I would frequently end up playing with these " older " golfers . It was not unusual for me to blast the ball far past their best efforts ...yet steadily they moved forward more often than not they actually played in the designated fairway , they hit it short but straight , simply by playing each long hole as one stroke more ( par fours became par fives , par fives became par six ). Mixing in some great short game play these old golfers would sail around the course posting scores in the low to mid 80's.<br /><br />My game was usually more dramatic , turning 3's into par fives and par fives into threes as I would post scores in the low to mid 80's as well . When I was playing competitively in college I played to a solid 3 handicap , spending several hours a day working on my game , and while playing cursing every shot that was less than perfect . In those days I owned several club records including the greatest distance for throwing a Driver with no wind assist ( 123.5 yards ).<br /><br />I wasn't much fun to play with in those days ...I was grouchy and my style of play left me alone in one distant fairway or another ...it wasn't until much much later that I started to enjoyed golf on a whole new level , this really started to happen when I actually had to pay to play . I had little or no time for practice , I started to put less pressure on myself and simply enjoy spending time on the course. I started to notice some interesting changes in my game . I was actually hitting the ball longer , much longer , due in part to the change in golf equipment ( metal woods, graphite shafts ) And a change in body weight ( I was no longer a slender Adonis , instead I had become a chubby wood nymph ..... Middle to long irons where just a little off , and the short game was unpredictable . But when I posted a score it was usually in the high seventies to low 80's . I found myself actually enjoying the people I was golfing with , especially my favorite foursome stubby , lefty and hoot. Not only an interesting group of nicknames but an interesting trio , these three guys had worked in the Portland Steel mills and were all now on disability leave since an unfortunate explosion in the foundry. Stubby had lost three inches off his left leg, Lefty was one armed , and hoot had no hearing and no balance . Suddenly I found myself wining more beverages than usual at the the 19th hole . Although in time Stubby became quite a good golfer when he learned to take advantage of uphill lies.<br /><br />All good things often come to an end ..and this was no exception , married with child on the way...responsibility crept into my life , like a dust bunny under the couch ...for the next 13 years golf was pushed aside as I worked to provide for my family. I worked as hard on providing asI had worked on my youthful Golf game , I returned to grouchy and not being much fun to live with and in time I squandered the relationship , and watching my daughter grow up ...as quickly as a golf ball can swerve dead left and into a lake , I found myself alone with nothing but debt and set of golf clubs that had once ruled the Astoria Golf and Country Club Fairways ...<br /><br />To take my mind off the failed marriage , I worked as a fireman at a local resort , Black Butte Ranch in the Foothills of the Cascade Mountains ..I had been very active with the local Volunteer Fire dept. and through this association I started also helping out at the resort , It was a busy department with a fair share of motor vehicle accidents , ambulance calls , forest fires and a few structure fires . We lived on site and that provided me with shower facilities since I had given the house to my former family. I also had golf privileges there and started playing regularly ...we couldn't play when we were on shift but we could hit balls and practice putting if we carried our radios . <br /><br />It was at this time that I met Lori ...we met on the Internet , in a Christian Chat Room on AOL . In a short time I had found that special someone ...Lori and I were married in 1996 , by then I had once again put away the clubs ...I had actually sold my Ben Hogan Irons. left most of the rest at the fire department. Lori and I moved away from Oregon in 1999...we moved to Tennessee and I started working at the Opryland Hotel ...while in Nashville I tried to pick up Golf again , but I was surprised by how expensive it had gotten , and how humid it was in Tennessee..I couldn't understand why everyone used golf carts , that is until I tried to walk 18 holes on a pleasant July day . My golfing outings were few and far between. I found a public course that had a practice area which I could hit some and shag them , and as I moved up the ladder at the Hotel I started to play more often and thought about getting into some amateur tournaments ...And then came 9/11 . <br /><br />After the attack I made a decision to move back to the Northwest ...In March of 2002 I drove to the Northwest with out a Job prospect but fully trusting in Gods Providence ..on the way I had a book on tape by M Scott Peck called Golf in the Spirit ...and it kept me company from Nashville to North Bonniville Washington . There my first stop was a Hotel Property called Dolce Skamania Lodge ...it was a great wooden building sitting above the Columbia River . the property had beautiful Golf Course carved into the mountains . After my first interview all I could think of was this is the Job I want , there are no others ...I was asked back for a follow up interview I was surprised , overwhelmed and blessed to have been offered the position . <br /><br />http://www.skamania.com/lodge-photos.php<br /><br />Skamania is about thirty miles from Portland in the Columbia river gorge ..it is one of the most beautiful places in the world ... Housing would be a problem , or not , in a matter of hours I had located a nice apartment in a wooded area just a few miles from the Hotel . Lori was in Nashville but it would be joining me in a few weeks ..the job at the hotel was a dream job , I was the front office manager and the weekend MOD at night , part of the Job included dining at the restaurant with my wife and critiquing the food and service , not to mention unlimited free golf.<br /><br />Lori and I were close to friends and close to my daughter , we could drive to the ocean in a few hours or explore the Columbia River Gorge and its vast number of waterfalls and trails. My Golf game improved dramatically and it was certain I was going to do very well in the Senior golf tournaments in the area. I made it a point to visit some of the courses I had grown up on in the Portland area and set personal bests on most of them ...even though my game in many ways had suffered from the years , my attitude and enjoyment of the game was so positive and encouraging ...And then it all came to an end ...Just before Thanksgiving of 2002 I was downsized ...my position at the Hotel had been eliminated , low occupancy in part to 9/11 , forced management to eliminate some management changes and I was low man on the totem pole ...<br /><br />This remote beautiful area I worked in which was at one time such a friend , became a liability ..and soon it became apparent that Lori and I would have to return to Tennessee where Lori's parents had suggested we could share their home with us ...We returned in June of 2003 and I went to work again at the Opryland Hotel ..assuming that with my experience I could easily work as a front desk manger ..I was humbled by a job offer for a front desk agent ...We needed the income and I accepted ..It was at this time that I received a small inheritance and we used the money to purchase a High end Digital SLR and I started reestablishing a relationship with photography ...soon I was passionately addicted and found myself also working for the hotel as what can be best described as an on site photographer. In time I was promoted several times. I was watching our income and found that I could either take photos or golf in my spare time . Golf was about $30.00 a game and photos were for all practical purposes free .. I choose photography. I played in two church tournaments. and twice in the Opryland employee tournament. These four tournaments were all a four man best ball format and in all of them our team did very well . The highlight round was at a local Lebanon Golf Course where my church team had three straight eagles ....and ended up scoring 59<br /><br />I left Opryland February of 2006 ...and decided to reinvent myself as a Commercial/portrait Photographer ...I picked up a few weddings , some portrait work and some commercial work... but income was very scarce at one point to make ends meet I tried to sell my clubs ..but at the last minute held onto them . <br /><br />One night as I was coming to the inescapable conclusion that I was going to have to give up my current " dream " job ..I was speaking to a friend of my wife , she was talking about her daughter's volleyball team and how disappointed she was with the quality of the photos she had of her daughter playing Volleyball , ..I offered to go to a game and take some photos, at the same time she told me of a company in Smyrna that had been taking the photos ..so I also decided to contacted them to see if they needed any Photographers.<br /><br />I dropped off a resume at Micheal's Photography and a few days later I was contacted by a Dave Warren he asked me to come in for an interview ...Dave hired me and for a year and a half I worked for Micheal's as a free lance photographer ...I loved this job and it also became the glue that held our developing photography business together ...David and I developed a friendship based on our Christian faith , Photography and an Interest in Theater ...David even extended to Lori and I an invitation to come and see a production of Guys and Dolls at some place called Lamplighters theater ...Lori and I love theater , and we were involved with a theater company in Mt Juliet ...we loved the production and were really excited to find out that the Theater Company called Lamplighters was sponsored by a Church ...Lori and I had always wanted to start a Church based theater company . we had wanted to reclaim the arts for the Glory of God ..and here was a church doing it ! Only problem was we where very happy in our church home and we lived about 25 miles away from the Smyrna Church. <br /><br />Lori and I went about our business we directed a play for the Mount Juliet Theater group and had great reviews ...in fact we shared some review space with a local blogger with another show at Lamplighters .."Much ado about nothing " . <br /><br />That spring ( 2008 ) was interesting . I was on the board for the Local Community Theater , and was involved deeply in our local church ..Leaving Opryland had been very good for my Church life , Sundays could be spent at church regularly..we even had the opportunity to belong to a Sunday school class...with a modest but steady income from the Photography business , the ability to return to doing some theater and a developing church family ...everything seemed in perfect harmony ...<br /><br />Then ...I started losing confidence in the Theater Company , who was in my opinion starting to experiment with titillating theater in order to build an audience ...one board member in particular was very uncomfortable to work with ...I choose to leave my board position , then I ran into some problems at the church I was going to and was asked to leave over theological differences ...<br /><br />Lori and I decided to do some Church shopping and while preparing our list we accepted another invitation from my friend Dave warren and his wife to visit Smyrna Assembly ...the Church that sponsored Lamplighters .<br /><br />We were simply overwhelmed by the Church service ...while we lived in Oregon we had gone to an Assembly of God and loved it , and we felt right at home ...Lori actually had tears in her eyes after the first service ...that was the first week of June ...and soon there was no doubt in my mind that this was the Church for us ... The worship filled such a void in my life , a void that I had tried to fill up with academic study in theology ...now I seemed much more at peace with myself and my relationship with God ...A few weeks ago Michael's Photography went through a " change " , I no longer have that account , but that has afforded me some " spare " time . I am in a play ( 12 Angry Men ) at Lamplighters. Ironically for the first time in years I am not angry ..I am feeling strangely blessed ..I look back down a series of fairways , of challenges , friends and opportunities all bringing me, a child of God born in Denver Colorado , with a wonderful woman , born in Pennsalvania to a town named Smyrna , with a set of golf clubs I should have sold several years ago.<br /><br />Yesterday the day I started talking about I went golfing with my Pastor and two Church Members , I played horribly and left physically tired and drained , but it was without a doubt the best golf experience I can remember ...for me it was more than a game , it was an affirmation of Gods steady and mighty hand on my life ...A God who knows when to prune and when to graft , a God who knows how to knit and weave , and bring all things into harmony and unity in His time ... A God who bears us on wings of eagles and can even remind us in a great and ancient game of His grace and love ...<br /><br />Looking back there has been no random actions ...all is part of a plan still playing out ...and I feel so blessed and so humbled to have been invited to the game .<br /><br />It was a pleasant spring day , one day in a stretch of days that trail back to the foundation of time , a day purposefully and deliberately planned ...and I was so thankful to participate in it ...Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-56393946423040494772009-04-03T09:53:00.001-07:002009-04-03T09:57:02.610-07:00What does Grace look like<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SdY_0fgBBwI/AAAAAAAAAHQ/q6bUzJZoBAQ/s1600-h/April+G+0402034.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 267px; height: 400px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SdY_0fgBBwI/AAAAAAAAAHQ/q6bUzJZoBAQ/s400/April+G+0402034.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5320510180826351362" /></a><br />Conservative late night talk shows are enjoying a considerable amount of attention because there is a possibility that some of the 270 detainees in Gitmo may be released to live in America. If you believe the late night pundits you might think that all 270 are scheduled to move to someplace like Palm Springs or The Hampton's and live in Luxury condos at taxpayer expense. All this hub bub from a comment made by Eric Holder that some may be allowed to live in the USA ...how many ..unknown , where , unknown , details unknown ...that it may be a possibility ..known. <br /><br />I have been thinking about this for sometime today ...on several different levels. The first is the most obvious why get upset with this news when so little is known ? Lets get the facts before we drag out the rope , tar and feathers and other playthings of the overly excitable. I had planned to write both a Secular response and a Christian response to this discussion , but I think only one is needed and that is the Christian Response:<br /><br />Matthew 21 : 22-35<br /><br />Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times."Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand talents[g] was brought to him. Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt. "The servant fell on his knees before him. 'Be patient with me,' he begged, 'and I will pay back everything.' The servant's master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go."But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred denarii. He grabbed him and began to choke him. 'Pay back what you owe me!' he demanded. "His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, 'Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.' "But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. When the other servants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed and went and told their master everything that had happened. "Then the master called the servant in. 'You wicked servant,' he said, 'I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. Shouldn't you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?' 34In anger his master turned him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart."<br />for some a non sequitur alarm must be going off , but wait !!! Think of it this way ...aren't all of us at war with God ? What do we deserve from God ? Do we deserve the basics of life ? Is God required to sustain us ? to provide for our food and our shelter ...we turned away from God ...the wages of sin is death . We have no rights as far as God is concerned , even the foundations of Human Existence were because of HIS good will and pleasure ..and it gets much better than that ...even while we were enemies of God He choose to save us ...not because of what we have done , but because of what He has done ...we call this Grace ...Unmerited favor ...we will live with Him in his home for eternity , all of us who were once at war with Him and those of us myself included who despite His grace still sin.<br /><br />We are called to be Living Epistles , what does that mean ..that we turn our backs on God when the Crow calls out , when its inconvenient , or unpopular ?<br /><br />Before its said and it will be said ...it would take a great deal of courage to offer to have one of the Gitmo detainees live in your home , in your neighborhood ...I am not sure I would have that much courage ...but I hope that I would be encouraged by others in the faith to at least be forgiving , to love mine enemies as God has loved me ...<br /><br />And of course this is an extreme situation ...its like another parable I heard in a sermon once ...it was about a man who arrived home to find his family horribly murdered ...the man had a choice to find the killer and kill him in return , that would be revenge ...Or he could trust in the authorities to find the man , prosecute him and execute or incarcerate him , that would be Justice ...Or he could find the man and offer to let the man live with him in the house the Murderer defiled ...that would be Grace ...<br /><br />While simply stated this is a story that has a much deeper meaning ....God actually does that for us ..who by our Sin , was the cause of the Death of His Son , and God in spite of that Sacrifice of His precious son ...has prepared a place for us in His Kingdom ...<br /><br />I do not believe that I would ever have enough courage to take a murderer into the home I share with my In Laws ...but I do pray I would have courage to stand up for one who would ...I would also pray that each of us encourage one another to have such courage ...to show the world what Gods Grace looks like on Earth. It may not be popular , you may not be invited to alot of bunko parties and Superbowl games ...you might even get a Canadian Application for Citizenship emailed to you ...but God never said it would be easy . <br /><br />In the past few months I have realized that I need to surround myself with such encouragers ...people who are unafraid of the consequences of preaching the Gospel of Forgiveness and reconciliation ... I have made that my prayer and I am so blessed to be meeting such people ..If we can't bring ourselves to engage a terrorist perhaps we can engage a homeless man , or a cranky neighbor , hire a paroled felon , or worse yet a Liberal . <br /><br />For copies of the Secular response you can send a check or money order to ....( name and address withheld out of fear ) it will come in a plain brown envelope with Prominient American Flag adorned stamps :)Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-12537694072222739532009-01-04T19:22:00.000-08:002009-01-05T17:13:39.982-08:00Firm Foundation<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SWF9_nJnDjI/AAAAAAAAAF4/TEbqwIMs87g/s1600-h/State+Capitol+Nashville+Tennessee.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 267px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SWF9_nJnDjI/AAAAAAAAAF4/TEbqwIMs87g/s400/State+Capitol+Nashville+Tennessee.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5287645969304194610" /></a><br /><br />Imagine you are in charge of building a magnificent building , the plans have been reviewed , the Architect has completed the most fantastic and enourmous creations ever seen ... you have the plans in your hand ...but after scanning them briefly you ...build from memory , or worse from hunch or your experiance...do you think there might be a possibility that something might go wrong? <br /><br />Usually soonner than later , then instead of reviewing the plans you should have looked at and followed dillagently in the first place , you try to improvise on your own understanding ?<br /> <br />Im sure you see where I am going with this ...<br /><br />Seems painfully obvious that the Bible provides anyone with a great blueprint for a abundant and peaceful life ...and yet <br /><br />even worse what if someone maintains that the Bible is the foundation of the building ...and we simply accept that statement with out discerment ?<br /><br />Thats how I feel when I hear that this Country was founded on Biblical Principals .<br />It wasn't . It may have been founded by Christians but it our nations foundations are not biblical.<br /><br />Before someone sends me ( another ) application for Canadian Citizenship , let me simply ask ...<br /><br />what Christian Principals are we talking about ? <br /><br />Here I believe is the Foundation of the Declaration of Independence:<br /><br /><strong>We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness. β That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, β That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness.</strong><br /><br />The Document seems to be saying that ALL men are created equal ...the Bible doesn't make that claim in fact Biblicaly its fair to assert that God favors some more than others ...not to mention the obvious hypocrasy that several of the founding fathers had slaves, and women were generally considered second tiered citizens.<br />The Document then goes on to say that as human being we have these rights given to us by God ...Life , Liberty , and the pursuit of Happyness ...I really don't see those Rights as God given, God does say that through Jesus Christ we will have life but the Bible insists that to have life you have to die to self , that our life with Christ is an eternal one. Liberty a God given right ? Liberty is a great blessing from God but Liberty from what ? <br />Then there is pursuit of happyness clause ... is that a Christian value , are we confusing joy with being happy ? <br />Does the Bible give people the right to even change their Government ? Did the founding fathers overlook the words of Paul ? <br /><br /> <strong>Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers. For there is no power but of God: the powers that be are ordained of God. <br /> Whosoever therefore resisteth the power, resisteth the ordinance of God: and they that resist shall receive to themselves damnation. </strong><br /><br />There is no doubt that Americas Founding Fathers crafted a remarkable Government , currently despite our struggles we are the envy of the " civilized " world , and certianly the Big dog on the block ...I do not know if we will beat the record set by the Roman Empire or even the History of Egypt ...but we have been remarkable and have been well rewarded for our industry and organization. <br />But is this Country built on a Foundation of Godly principals ? <br /><br /><strong>Psalm 127<br />A song of ascents. Of Solomon. <br /> 1 Unless the LORD builds the house, <br /> its builders labor in vain. <br /> Unless the LORD watches over the city, <br /> the watchmen stand guard in vain.</strong><br /><br />At first blush it would seem that a Nation that practiced Forgivness , instread of revenge , that prayed for its Enemies instead of bombed them , that treated the foriegner the same as a citizen , a nation that left vengence to the Lord , and that openly loved one another , and forgave its debtors ...well it would seem that such a nation would quickly perish ...a door mat for the non Christian Nations ...so it seems it has been institutionalized that in order to protect the rights of its Christian Citizens ...we accept the ways of our non Christian Enemies . <br /><br />At least that is my take on it ...Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-67139658307034940792008-08-13T14:50:00.000-07:002008-08-13T15:26:15.741-07:00The Joy of MeI have heard it mentioned several times in Church is the Biggest Lie that Satan tells you is that he does not exist. Lies are subjective and I would like to put forward that I believe the biggest lie we are faced with in our culture is the " Me first "lie.<br />Our culture is all about self , the importance of self , the appeasment of self , the nurturing of self , the training of self , the grooming of self , the gospel of self ...this culture does not escape any of us, though it can be argued some are more enamoured of themselves than others. <br />Their are very few totally alturistic people in this world , those who do good things for others , usually do it for themselves as well , but at least in their case they are doing good things for others. <br />You can't escape this doctrine of self, we are told and encouraged to take care of ourselves , we are told we deserve a break today , that we should have it our way, that its time for us , that we deserve this thing or that thing...Most of us live as if we are the stars of a movie about US. and its the only one showing at the theater. Not only is the movie about us we get upset if others don't know the movie is about us , we want them to know the words we have written for them , where we want them to stand , how fast or how slow to go on the freeway, we want people to answer the phones when we want them too and stop calling when we want them to stop calling. <br />I know this well because I have my own movie as well...and it is the only one playing .<br />We live in an age of entitlements , we demand service , yet are unwilling for the most part to give it. In a word we are selfish. <br />You go for a visit and someone prepares a meal for you and you complain there is too much salt , or that you perfer Endive over Romaine lettuce . You get iced tea from your host and you tell them its too sweet. You stay at a Hotel and you complain about the feather pillow instead of foam ...we have become a nation of whinners.<br />I know a person who was offered free housing to save on his travel expense then complained bitterly that the bed was too small he expected a King size bed ...<br />And it goes on and on. I rarely see people holding doors for other people , in the middle of a converstaion they answer their phones as if you are invisible, driving down the road people throw out their trash and ciggerettes because they don't want to have to deal with the trash and the butts...because ..its their movie , everyone else are just extras to make them look , act and feel better.<br />If this malady were just isolated to us as individuals it might not be so bad , but it spirials out ward , we choose our elected officials not for what they might do for others , but for what we hope they will do for us...we stockpile nuclear weapons so if necessary we can destroy half the world to protect our way of life ..and we allow surrogates to go forth into harms way so that we might live a more worry free life ...<br />We have totally bought into this Sacrifice for our Country idea haven't we ? Yet before you lynch me consider this ..imagine that the next door neighbor comes to your house , this is the boy you watched growing up , playing catch with his father, shooting hoops in the drive way , you saw him one night slip into his freshly washed car with a bright blue tux on ..this boy who has just graduated from High School comes up to your door step and says " Kenn, I have decided to join the Army I want to protect you from terrorism and to do that I am willing to sacrifice my life " and you give him a big hug and say you will pray for him...sounds reasonable doesn't it ?<br />I think I would say something else , something like please don't do that ..I don't want you to sacrifice your life for mine ...in fact if it means that I might die at the hands of a terrorist instead of you I will gladly take my chances ...Instead , go to College , get married , have children watch them grow up and if on the way you help to find a cure of Cancer or Diabetes , then ..you will have in fact done more to save my life or prolong it than risking your life in a distant place , walking around with a target on your back.<br />You see I beleive that Love ( true love ) means that the needs of others become more important than your own. I do not need the youth of our Country to sacrifice themselves for me ..I would nver ask someone to risk their life for mine ...period.<br />I will take my chances ...And I will trust in God .<br />But as a nation we have neatly packaged and decorated the Sacrifice of our soldiers , and there is no doubt they are being sacrificed ..over 4000 and counting ...honestly its not unlike the ancient Aztecs sacrifing their children in the Human Sacrifices to provide annual crops ...<br />You see ...we do these things, allow these things , not because they are good for others , but because they are good for us ..Of course we try to say we are doing this for others , that we are doing good and helping others , but we know , deep down inside we know we are doing these things because the thought of losing our freedom , our language , our carpeted homes , our SUV's and Skidoos is so abhorrent to us that we will accept a few human scarifices to make sure we can maintain our way of life .<br />And way of life means a culture that takes care of meKenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-80240754553711296142008-07-28T16:02:00.000-07:002008-07-28T17:33:38.229-07:00Praise the Lord and roll another Ciggerette<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SI5lGOEoT_I/AAAAAAAAAE4/UgoIRiwJ66M/s1600-h/Tobacco+Leaf.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SI5lGOEoT_I/AAAAAAAAAE4/UgoIRiwJ66M/s400/Tobacco+Leaf.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5228227374954860530" /></a><br />Tobacco ,this cash crop for Tennessee Farmers,has provided a living for genreations,Those who profit in Tobacco like most of us probably go to church, praise God , send their Children off to school and dream for their success and well being ..good people , great neighbors , yet this product kills , more people by far and even farther have been killed by tobacco than all the terrorism in the world ..I know that seems harsh, and it would be if I was singling out the Tabocco Industry...lets consider the Tobacco Industry as a metephor ...How many Christians do you suppose work for companies that provide similar products and services ...what is an appropriate business for a follower of Christ to be in ?<br />When I was in the Hotel Industry I had to choose between my Job and checking in Unmarried Adults .. Do you work in a bar or resturant that sells alcohol ? A company selling arms and munitions to Iran ( beleive it or not there are several in this country that do so ) Or to any other country ? Do you manufacture handguns , work in a Hospital where abortions are performed ? Sell Adult Magazines ? Now I am not saying you are going to hell because of any of these .. I am just asking us to consider how what we do for a living reflects our Christian Values and beliefs ...Im not sure we should have one set of beliefs on Sunday and the rest of the week ignore them. <br />Perhaps a question that has more punch is this . Do we Trust God and His promises to us.<br />If we trust God and Obey God Im pretty sure about half of us would be unemployed ..if we put God in the work place where He should be , then some of us would lose our Jobs or we would choose to leave them ...<br />Recently I saw some " Christian " video games , action games made by " Christian " companies who wanted an alternative to the gratioutius violence of the worldy video games ...they are really no different, the game player ( On Gods Side ) shoots , kills and destroys the minions of Satan ...lots of action , lots of gore ...no difference .<br />I love to read about the Civil War I even at one time had a Video Game where I could take on either the North or the South on a computer. I had a ball I replayed Gettysburg hundreds of time as the South and I always trounced the North ...in order to do it I had to sacrifice some units knowing they would be destroyed , but that gained time for my greater victory...it began to wear on me ..I began to realize my playful game had real time implications ..one day I simply refused to engage the Northern Army and interestingly enough the Northern Forces seemed to be confused ..eventualy the game ended and no Bytes of information were destroyed ...<br />Reminded me about that old Viet Nam anti War Slogan I used to have on my car " what if they had a war and no one showed up".<br />It seems to me that the Greatest Skill the Generals of both Armies had was simply getting these large bodies of men over unmapped and difficult terrain and being able to line them up and shoot and kill each other.<br />Now with this I am sure some one will be saying well if it wern't for the soldiers we would be all speaking German or Japanese ...<br />Paul Spoke Latin ....and your point is ?<br />So now we are back to Tobacco Farmers ...Praising the Lord in Church and selling Death in the Tocacco auctions ....I guess its all about Choice ...Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-23214736383445636422008-07-23T19:12:00.000-07:002008-07-23T19:59:48.482-07:00Gentle and Humble ...a Sacrifice for all<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6jHkJLvZ_LAo4DIu4h51vlxVJG3RuFb2gi0ObSaPgqAOGepFQP7FcHhtsmDf8RPHugjRP-cBRCFb62Im2nFHWnMVXcuzxRkSiImJ-fvsso8RK1jYHzXy2MgS9u1PC__ndxOtpdOO9m-w/s1600-h/Sacrifice.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5226408343569707842" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6jHkJLvZ_LAo4DIu4h51vlxVJG3RuFb2gi0ObSaPgqAOGepFQP7FcHhtsmDf8RPHugjRP-cBRCFb62Im2nFHWnMVXcuzxRkSiImJ-fvsso8RK1jYHzXy2MgS9u1PC__ndxOtpdOO9m-w/s400/Sacrifice.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>I think Lori hit on a Key point with her response to my last post. Why is it that Hundreds of Thousands of people will follow the advice of a TV personality ? How is it that Television and movies seem to have so much impact on what we think and do. And Conversely why do so few people pay attention to what their Christian Neighbors , Family and Friends have to say.</div><br /><div>Maybe we should be asking ourselves ( including myself ) what do we say ? and perhaps more important just how do we act ?</div><br /><div>Do we act like non Christians , do we speak like non Christians ? This is a question I have started asking myself and looking at my personal walk . I am afraid I am part of the problem. I started by asking myself Just how should we act ... If we are being as the Bible says transformed in the image of Christ just what does that image look like ?</div><br /><div>IN the Bible Jesus uses just two words to describe His personality. " I am gentle and humble in heart " . That's a good place to start. </div><br /><div>Humble and Gentle. </div><br /><div>Websters Dictionary Defines humble as:</div><div>Etymology:<br />Middle English, from Anglo-French, from Latin <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">humilis</span> low, humble, from humus earth; akin to Greek <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">chthΕn</span> earth, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">chamai</span> on the ground<br />Date:<br />13<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">th</span> century<br />1: not proud or haughty : not arrogant or assertive2: reflecting, expressing, or offered in a spirit of deference or submission 3 a: ranking low in a hierarchy or scale : <a class="lookup" href="http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/insignificant">insignificant</a>, <a class="lookup" href="http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/unpretentious">unpretentious</a></div><div> </div><div> </div><div>Consider that this is How the Son of the most High God described Himself. If anyone would have the right to be arrogant , the right to be assertive it would be the Son of God , and yet He says just the opposite . We claim to be proud after a hard days work making oyster crackers , Gods days work included the cosmos , the oceans and the bountiful life that covers the earth. I am part of Gods days work , and yet I brag over a reasonable picture of a Sunset. </div><br /><div>Jesus was saying he was humble to us ,His people and as His people our goal is to be Christlike. </div><br /><div>I suspect there are very few of us who would claim to be humble , humility is not a word we would readily use to describe our selves or our culture .</div><br /><div>Just a drive down the road will revel the worlds best hamburger ( at five different locations ) the fastest car , the best phone service , the best football team, the greatest nation on the earth. This is not only the way the world acts but its the way we act as well ,,,the greatest church , the largest congregation, the best sermon. As a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Churched</span> group we routinely compare our little Worship place with others and the others usually come up short.</div><br /><div>What would a picture of a humble Christian look like ? How do we start to learn to be humble , and why is it necessary for us to be humble ?</div><br /><div>I think a starting place would be scriptural as well , an understanding of Servant hood. Servant hood is very closely aligned with very nature of love. After all can't we define true love as a condition when someone Else's needs become more important than your own ?</div><br /><div>Now there is a topic ...For it seems that for most Love has now been redefined as What must I do to satisfy myself ? Its all about me , me first , my needs first , its my body. These all come from the same common root , its difficult to criticise the person choosing to abort when we are ourselves placing our needs first and the needs of others in the distant background.</div><br /><div>Servant hood means doing for others with no anticipation or desire for reward for ourselves. There is <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">alot</span> to be said on this and the hour is late ... I am going to end tonight by challenging myself and any who are interested in taking a small baby step ... each day I wish to provide without benefit to myself a random act of kindness to another ...since reporting this would in a sense be a benefit I also choose to simply do it and not then seek praise for reporting it ...</div><br /><div>Kenn</div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-88853633957235382142008-07-22T15:08:00.000-07:002008-07-22T17:43:10.522-07:00Oprahs Gospel ?????<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SIZ8wjsZd3I/AAAAAAAAAEo/IedE8hJ41hU/s1600-h/Reading+the+Bible045+w.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5226001591267063666" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SIZ8wjsZd3I/AAAAAAAAAEo/IedE8hJ41hU/s400/Reading+the+Bible045+w.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>The other day a billboard outside of a local church Caught my attention . It said ( in electric letters ) " We don;t have the same Gospel as Oprah ". At first I didn't know what that meant , I asked my wife if she knew how Oprah had hacked off the local Church and she said that Oprah has apparently hacked off many Christians with her " odd " interpretations of the Bible. </div><br /><div>I probably should have let it go at that ..but I have been thinking about that sign for several days now and I have some concerns.</div><br /><div>I guess my first concern is that as "Madison Avenue " advertising this just doesn't work for me , I'm not interested in what something is not ..I am far more interested in what something is. I wouldn't expect a Church to announce " we are not Muslim " , Or we are not " Buddhists " Nor do I expect a Church to advertise on behalf of others ...Oprah does pretty well , in fact its probably reasonable that More people watch her on a daily basis than have been in this particular church in a year. What I want to know is very simple I want to know what you believe and I want this to be positive and not negative.</div><br /><div>I am reasonably certain that a clear proclamation of the Gospel will make perfect sense to those God wants to hear the message in His timing. Proclaim the Gospel of the Jesus Christ ...that's what the Bible says to do.</div><br /><div>As for the Gospel of Oprah I also don't have a clue what that really means ...I know that Oprah doesn't have a " Gospel " I know she is a person who has beliefs and ideas and some or many of these may get under the skin of other people ...but I think all of us have those ...One of the biggest surprises for me as a new Christian was finding out that not all Christians believed that all Christians were Christian ...In fact it seems that some Christians go so far in defining what it means to be Christian that they essentially exclude anyone who doesn't agree with them as not being Christian enough for them . I believe that faith and beliefs are gifts from God .. it is through Gods grace and not our merit that He offers these gifts.</div><div>I'm not even sure that God wants all of us to have the same ideas and beliefs ..I do know that if He did we would . I also feel that while there are people who know the Bible by heart they have a hard time understanding and living the heart of the Bible. I am not bothered nor offended by Oprah nor am I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">threatened</span> by her ...If I want to know what the Bible says I read the Bible and if I want to know what Oprah believes I will read and listen to what she says.His Word says that " we see but a reflection " and each of us will always see a reflection differently than another ..its a matter of angles and perception. All this to say ...Christians should proclaim the Gospel ...that's Job enough for most of us ..Just faithfully Preaching Christ and Christ Crucified.</div>I would myself be inclined to stay far away from a Church that measured its Preaching against a Talk show host ...but that again is just me<br /><div>The Cross on the top of the steeple points to Heaven not to our neighbors transgressions ....at least that is the way I see it </div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-90126280757624404402008-07-16T16:09:00.000-07:002008-07-21T20:01:28.567-07:00Life is not always Sedimentary<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SIVMwBJHdSI/AAAAAAAAAEg/CnO5vKpf29s/s1600-h/Underwater+Volanic+flow+exposed.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5225667330457433378" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SIVMwBJHdSI/AAAAAAAAAEg/CnO5vKpf29s/s400/Underwater+Volanic+flow+exposed.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">believe</span> that life is far less sedimentary and far more metamorphic. The sum of our <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">experience</span> may be laid down in sedimentary layers , but something happens to this <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">experience</span> it is not processed in a linear fashion , instead it is compressed , jumbled , pressed , and squeezed into the person that is you and the person that is me.</div><br /><br /><div>I realize now that my trip to Oklahoma just as I entered my teen years was one of those layers . It must have had a profound effect on my life. when I returned home from Oklahoma without realizing it I had changed. </div><br /><div>I have <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">stopped</span> at this point for over five days ...thinking , pulling threads together , realizing that I had stumbled over <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">something</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">fundamental</span> , and yet I have no Idea what it is.</div><br /><div>what <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">happened</span> in Oklahoma was life changing ...only it took me over 40 years to realize my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">life</span> had changed.</div><br /><div>I slipped the chains of self <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">awareness</span> and began to see the world in with the eyes and ears of others ...I had seen racism and Poverty , I had seen a simpler culture not yet enslaved by Television. I had become more self <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">reliant</span> , after all a trip downtown on the bus was not quite the same as bus trip across the USA.</div><br /><div>But I have to say that the more I realize this was a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">turn point</span> in my life I cannot find that which I turned on.</div><br /><div>I have to leave Oklahoma ...consider some other <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">writing</span> subjects ... </div><br /><div>This has helped me to know that each of us is far more complex than we appear we are not simple sediments easily <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">interpreted</span> layer upon layer , we are more than linear. we are compressed , torn and uplifted , we are pressed down and formed out of pressures we cannot fully explain.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-60545317248527714522008-07-13T13:44:00.000-07:002008-07-13T16:54:05.901-07:00After this its back to Oklahoma<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SHqVj3P44tI/AAAAAAAAAEY/Ep196S9lxPA/s1600-h/_MG_7164.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5222651161248064210" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SHqVj3P44tI/AAAAAAAAAEY/Ep196S9lxPA/s400/_MG_7164.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>I pan to get back to the "Oklahoma " thread in a few days ..but recent developments and thoughts keep forcing themselves on me in such a manner that I know I need to deal with them .</div><br /><br /><br /><br /><div>As can be expected the last few weeks centered around " Independence day " have <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">stirred</span> some thoughts , discussions and a few stumbling blocks.I believe it is possible to be out of balance when it comes to Patriotism and the Military. The past church we used to go to would have ( in my opinion ) these over the top patriotic services to honor the Military in our country. On services close to Memorial Day, Veterans day , Fourth of July , patriotic songs would be sung , Service men and women past and present would stand and be honored , we would pledge <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">allegiance</span> to the flag , and at one time we even had an alter call to America the Beautiful. This seems inappropriate and out of balance to me. I believe this Country is much more than our Military conquests. If I had my choice we should be honoring ...all those who have "sacrificed " for the country</div><br /><br /><br /><div>Because I am a Pacifist I am <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">routinely</span> called a traitor ...This by many who have themselves never worn a uniform or sacrificed for the country. What they don't know or care to know is how much I have sacrificed and worked to make this Country better for those that will go on after me ...I was active in the Anti War Movement in the 60's , <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Actively</span> worked for Civil Rights. When I was in College i was both President of the Student Body and The Editor of the Student Newspaper, As a new father and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">store owner</span> in Sisters Oregon I was a Volunteer Fireman and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">emergency</span> health provider for over a decade ...</div><br /><br /><br /><div>Most important ...in all this I am not alone ...I don't <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">believe</span> that the greatness of this country can be measured only in terms of Military victories and sacrifices. My father was one of thousands of young men who hung on <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">wispy</span> strands of steel to dynamite the sides of the Hoover Dam, he was a high steel worker on the Golden gate bridge , and during WW 11 he worked rigging cargo in the giant cargo bays of Liberty Ships ..where he was exposed to asbestos and died an <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">early</span> death from Lung cancer at 59.</div><br /><br /><br /><div>This country is the sum total of the farmers, and steel workers, the accountants, and teachers , the pastors and doctors , <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">pavers</span> and roofers...riveters and welders , truckers and food pickers , packers , and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">stockers</span>. </div><br /><br /><br /><div>Some of these people went home after work and watched TV , or sat in easy chairs and read their favorite books or magazines. Some came home quickly showered and grabbed a bag full of Baseball equipment and headed for the Neighborhood Baseball diamond. Some even though they were bone weary ..pushed themselves into cars and took the Neighborhood children into the wilderness , or to the camping grounds nearby.</div><br /><br /><br /><div>I have also found something interesting over the years ...those who went off to war are perhaps the most ardent pacifists of all ...their pacifism comes from that same <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">epiphany</span> voiced by General Robert E. Lee at <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">Fredricksburg</span> " It is good that War is so terrible that we would not do it more often ". <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">Veterans</span> who I know who actually saw combat are almost to the man unwilling nor inclined to talk about their <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">front line</span> experiences. Conversely I find those who are most vocal when it comes to talking of Sacrifice and Honor ...may have served in the theaters of Combat , but <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">their</span> service was far and distant from the spilling of blood. </div><br /><br /><br /><div>There are those who missed the fight and live vicariously the battles and bravery.</div><br /><br /><br /><div>My former father in law was a corpsman running a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">LST</span> on D day ..he took fresh young troops into the Battle and returned with Mangled bodies from each landing. He never talked about his <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">experiences</span> , <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_18">until</span> the 50<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19">th</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">anniversary</span> of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">Dday</span> ...when I called him to thank him for his sacrifice...His reaction was simple and direct ...those who fought fought so that we might never need to fight again.</div><br /><br /><br /><div>My best friend had two tours of Duty in Vietnam ...one where his job was defusing unexploded bombs and explosives..the second tour he worked in Graves registration ..he came under fire several times and I have heard from other of his friends that he was for a brief time a POW <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">until</span> he escaped .</div><br /><br /><br /><div>Lee and I might be seen as a curious pair Him the Warrior and me the Pacifist ..but we have a deep and abiding <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">appreciation</span> for each other and what each has done in good conscience. </div><br /><br /><br /><div>We also share a distrust and dissatisfaction of the leadership that has directed both of us .</div><br /><br /><br /><div>Yes I believe we should honor the soldiers and warriors of our country , but I think that we should also honor the peacemakers , the workers , the teachers and all of us that form the matrix of the society we live in ...Honor does not always mean continued sacrifice , that we send more to their deaths out of fear of dishonoring those that died in service to their country is not in my opinion appropriate ...we should seek to diplomatically end hostilities whenever possible and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_24">certainly</span> not be seeking to expand them. </div><br /><br /><br /><div>As Christians we have a battle plan , one offered by Jesus Christ not just to His <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_25">Disciples</span> but to the Multitudes as well ...these words of His are not the words of a Mad man ..nor the words of a man who had no Idea where the world would be today. His words which we must at least discuss and examine are easily available in the Bible.</div><br /><br /><div></div><strong>Matthew 5: 38-47<br /></strong><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><p><strong>"You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.'But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.<br />"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect</strong>.<br /></p><br /><br /><p>If this is what Jesus said , and if we believe that Jesus is God , and if we as Christians take our very name from this man ..then we must accept this teaching ....how do we not ? </p><br /><br /><p></p><br /><br /><p></p><br /><br /><p></p><br /><br /><p></p><br /><br /><p><strong></strong><br /></p><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><br /><div></div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-78362031992602461492008-07-11T06:55:00.000-07:002008-07-11T08:22:54.842-07:00Free Speech ?<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SHd6dij67JI/AAAAAAAAAEQ/bGDEkUb4Xy0/s1600-h/Breaking+Clouds.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5221776940871642258" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SHd6dij67JI/AAAAAAAAAEQ/bGDEkUb4Xy0/s400/Breaking+Clouds.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>I think that far more bad things have happened in this world because of people trying to do good things ..than bad things happening because of people knowingly doing bad things. </div><br /><br /><div>And when people think what they are doing is right , and they think that the reason they are doing them is a good or ( Godly ) reason it is far more difficult to take a look at what we are doing objectively.</div><br /><br /><div>I know that for the vast and greater part of my life I have grown up in a political and cultural environment that believes that the USA is Light , and those other Countries who disagree with us are an opposing force of darkness. </div><br /><br /><div>Not too long ago I was in an Christian Play ..where Judas said "I am not as black as you think I am nor are you as white as you think you are ". I think there is much to be said of that.</div><br /><br /><div>I certainly do not believe that this country has Evil intent ..when it comes to its politics or world view ..but we have made evil choices ...</div><br /><br /><div>When we list these choices we have made ..a curious thing happens ..either the list is dismissed as being too far back in the past ( Our treatment of the Native Americans for instance) Or that these are new and far more complicated times ( Our treatment of the Detainees at Guantanamo for instance ). We are list makers ...and score keepers ...ultimately we like to have our good deeds add up to outnumber our bad ones ...Lately it seems to me that in order to skew the count another curious thing is happening. There are some who feel that even the discussion about what is right and what is wrong ..is unpatriotic....</div><br /><div>I don't understand that ...how can discussing openly our policies , our tactics and our strategies be considered un-American ? In our effort to export American Ideas , culture and government to the world we have made some mistakes ...what predictable result can we see in the future if we cease discussing our mistakes and errors ?</div><br /><div>When I say openly and with conviction that the war in Iraq is wrong ...I am saying that as a caring citizen of this country ...I can be critical of this Countries Policies because I help shape and am a part of them . </div><br /><div>If people do not agrree with me ...thats part of the process. I do not feel threatened or dismissed because others disagree with me. I do not think the world revolves around me ...nor do I feel the planet will slip from orbit and hurtle in the abyss of space if my thoughts and ideas do not become the standard by which millions of people will live their lives .</div><br /><div>Heck I have enough difficulty living up to my standards on my own.</div><br /><div>We need to be careful very careful that we not only praise " free " speech in this country , but that we allow it to be free...</div><br /><div></div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-82340844984950214382008-07-06T16:50:00.000-07:002008-07-06T17:33:56.648-07:00Fireworks , Spider Monkeys and Christ ( just for staters )<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SHFj8WWPVuI/AAAAAAAAAEI/ns-Bz52TF8E/s1600-h/Spider+monkey+,+Fireworks+and+Christ.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5220063331541276386" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SHFj8WWPVuI/AAAAAAAAAEI/ns-Bz52TF8E/s400/Spider+monkey+,+Fireworks+and+Christ.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Friday I went downtown Nashville to Photograph the Fireworks. I set up at an location I had shot from a few years ago ...and before the Fireworks began I was visited by the Police and asked to leave ..apparently they were <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">concerned</span> with my safety from the fallout from the Fireworks ..even though I pointed out ( nicely ) that there were several hundred people between me and the fireworks on the river ..my argument entered the logic zone and even thought the Beat policemen understood and agreed , management did not. So I was moved to an area that was closer and more <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">hazardous</span> for my safety. </div><br /><div>On the way to this area I was heartened to notice that someone had taken the time and energy to clear an area close to the road where people could sit and enjoy without having broken glass under their bottom and brush up their nose. </div><br /><div>I had no such Luxury but I did get tolerable view of the display.</div><br /><div>When I left at the end of the Fireworks ..I was disheartened to see that the people behind me who had been able to sit in relative comfort had left the area filled with garbage , empty beer cans and broken glass. </div><br /><div>That and the confusion about where I could or not stay , started me thinking about the Fourth of July ..Why do we celebrate ? and has the Celebration lost its meaning ? </div><br /><div>I started to think about something Lori had pointed out to me ... a large church in our area was planning a worship service that included the largest indoor firework display in the area ... I now plan to digress ...please bear with me ...</div><br /><div>For one thing I do not understand why a Church would choose to place a flag in the Sanctuary ...Before you send me hate mail , let me offer this ..only in the United States , and in the State allowed Christian Church of China will you find National Symbols ( flags ) in the Church.</div><br /><div>In the not so distant past Nazi Germany also did the same ...but that is something else.</div><br /><div>I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">believe</span> that the Sanctuary is where we worship God its HIS house and He is not bound by any one state or nation. In His house we can give thanks for His blessings and that <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">certainly</span> may include the blessing of our Nation ...but it is HIS house. The United States Government has rules about this sort of thing ...the rules for the display of the flag allow for a Church to not display it at all ..its not required to fly the flag in the sanctuary ...but if you do ..it has to be more <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">prominent</span> than any other Emblem ( not just another flag ) such as the Christian Flag.</div><br /><div>So I wonder if its questionable having a flag in the sanctuary ...then what about a worship Service and fireworks ?</div><br /><div>does this seem kinda out of place ? perhaps an inappropriate use of Gods House ...after all remember why God didn't allow David to build the Temple ?</div><br /><div>And this ongoing <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">discussion</span> in my mind brings me to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">today's</span> Worship Service in our new Church. Which was wonderful By the way. We discussed spider monkeys because they have an interesting habit that makes it easy for them to be captured ...they are stubborn and greedy. The trappers hollow out a large gourd and leave a hole just large enough for the Monkey to place his hand in , then the trapper places a piece of fruit or candy in the gourd. The Monkey investigates the gourd sticks its hand in grasps the prize but finds that when the gift is grasped he cannot remove his hand He is stuck and the trapper can easily capture the monkey. Obviously for the monkey to have his freedom all he has to do is drop the fruit and remove the hand and scamper off ..but the monkey will have nothing of that. </div><br /><div>The point was made in church ...what is our fruit , what is our piece of candy that we hold so tightly to it we miss the freedom of Christ ? Some obvious answers would be our money , our cars , our toys , our addictions ...but what about some of the things we almost hold sacred , like our flags , our patriotism , our weapons of mass destruction ? </div><br /><div>When I discussed the flag issue with my former pastor I was told that Romans 9 gives the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">scriptural</span> foundation for this practice ...</div><br /><div>Does it ? Romans of course was written by Paul a Roman Citizen <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">imprisoned</span> in Rome. Does this mean that the Gentile <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Believers</span> the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">Persecuted</span> Church in Rome brought Roman Standards into the Caves and worship places with them ..did they begin their Worship with a Hail <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">Cesar</span> ?</div><br /><div>There is nothing wrong with <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">Celebrating</span> the 4<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">th</span> of July ...<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">especially</span> if you pick up your trash. But doesn't it make sense to worship God in House house and leave the fireworks to the parks and river banks and lakes ? </div><br /><div>This has led me to a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">curious</span> paradox that I wish to address in the next blog ..</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Kenn</div><br /><div></div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-55489475307782515362008-07-02T19:21:00.000-07:002008-07-03T11:09:47.981-07:00" hard" times in Oklahoma<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SG0UjVl8tPI/AAAAAAAAAEA/C06h9gqUPMM/s1600-h/Hard+times.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5218850140516562162" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SG0UjVl8tPI/AAAAAAAAAEA/C06h9gqUPMM/s400/Hard+times.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>The first few weeks in Oklahoma in the summer of 1960 , were weeks of adjustment...after the first days of realizing that we ( me and the cousins ) were linked by some sort of family bond , that included a unwritten code of being nice to each other ...we started the " testing" period.This means that we started to size each other up ...when it came to all things academic I easily had the upper hand. But in the important summer <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">categories</span> of farming, wrestling, colorful speech, and overall physical endurance I was a distant last. The rest of the summer was a chess match ( or checkers) where each of us tried to find the best and easiest way to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">excel</span>. It was a classic battle the city kid vs the country kids. When it was all over <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">I'm</span> not sure who won , I do know I left with a much greater <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">appreciation</span> of their life and lifestyle.</div><br /><div>Looking back I realize that those summer days were filled with creative play, with participating not observing ..none of my relatives had <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">TV's</span> , and they didn't feel bad about not having them ...The most important news was discussed in the barber shop and the town store. The best entertainment was on the front porch every evening as guitars and banjo's and harmonicas were paraded out. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">WSM</span> radio and the Grand ole <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Opry</span> was a popular diversion ..but it usually turned into a sing along. Gospel and Country music were the standards. Sweet Iced tea was the evening staple and on special nights we would have <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">lemonade</span> , and fresh made Ice Cream..with the smell of the rock salt and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">vanilla</span> hanging heavy in the air.</div><br /><div>The Baby boomer generation on the porch , seemed to live each moment to its utmost , there was very little talk of the future , of plans for work or school , if there were plans it was for where to go fishing in the morning.</div><br /><div>There was much less fear in the Countryside...Where I lived we were practicing Air Raid drills and being warned about the communist Menace ... In Oklahoma people kept watch on the weather and worried about the rainfall. </div><br /><div>Looking back I realize ( Much latter ) that this is what I missed the most after leaving Oklahoman and returning to Oregon...I missed living each moment , I missed not living each day in fear of being <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">separated</span> from my family if the Bomb was dropped...None of the circumstances of life in the 1960's were different , but in Oklahoma we didn't hear a constant drumbeat of fear from the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">televisions</span> and news ... The enemies they faced in Oklahoma were tangible , tornado, hail , drought even poverty . But these dangers came with a deep abiding faith and an understanding of a word that we seem to have lost from our modern day vocabulary. Providence. There was no courting of entitlements in the hill country of Oklahoma , living with <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">Tornado's</span> taught you that " there but for the grace of God " ..when good fortune fell on some it was shared and when misfortune fell it was likewise shared. There was a strong sense of family and community ...Yes it was a hard time<br /></div><div></div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><br /><div></div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-46652850281248172352008-07-01T18:06:00.001-07:002008-07-02T07:01:42.177-07:00Bound to be some trouble<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SGrX3ra-UjI/AAAAAAAAADw/QfLyUX4aYxc/s1600-h/IMG_2866.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5218220469810778674" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SGrX3ra-UjI/AAAAAAAAADw/QfLyUX4aYxc/s320/IMG_2866.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Looks like I have some catching up to do ...first of all I have been really busy uploading photos to a Nashville Book Project called " capture Music City " You and investigate if you want at " <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Capturemusiccity</span>.com ) and you are <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">certainly</span> welcome to vote on some of my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">submissions</span> ..some of you already have and thank you !</div><div><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Tomorrow</span> I plan to return to my stay in Oklahoma and Ken the early years ...today just a few <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">snippets</span> to catch me up.</div><div>I was very sad to hear that George Carlin passed away, I didn't always agree with his <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">verbiage</span> but I was always impressed with his passion and comedy.</div><div>Lori and I have decided to make the Smyrna Assembly our new Church home now we have to break the bad news to them ..( I am the bad news )</div><div>I have been really on the fence about the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">upcoming</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">presidential</span> election ...again seems like a choice between Spam and Liver and onions ...like when will we ever get Sushi on the menu ?</div><div>By that I mean it seems that if we lived in a city where we only had two resturants and both resturants only served Spam and Liver and onions we would find a new place to live or open a new resturant. Yet that is how it seems every election year. I usually choose the candidate I plan to support not by their Merits but by the groups and people who line up against them.</div><div>Anyway I had thought of a good reason to vote for McCain. But then when I saw that Both Dr <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">Dobson</span> and the NRA are <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">coming</span> out against <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">Obama</span> I think <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">I'm</span> Choosing Obama.</div><div><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">Dobson</span> said <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">Obama</span> has faulty <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">interpretation</span> of the Bible ...<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">respectively</span> I would like to mention to Mr <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">Dobson</span> , that when Jesus said " Love your enemies " I don't think he meant for us to kill them. I find it very hard to understand the " Christian Right " not just because they are so wrong , but because they have so " honestly " driven the Christian Faith into the political arena .</div><div>I say honestly because it is my hope and prayer that this is not a malicious act on their part , that they are seeking to do good, but if they are seeking to do Gods will for the world , then I think they should spend more time in the Bible and less time in politics. That Evengelicals are so passionaltly for the war in Iraq , ( and it seems will support the upcomming war in Iran ) is a sad commentary on how little they actually read the Bible. Bottom line Christians are not supposed to be using the weapons of this world. we are to be a light to a world that is oppressed by war and selfishness , and show that there is a better way a way that Jesus Preached to promote peace. </div><div>As for the NRA ...imagine my surprise ...a large group of middle aged white guys who love guns ..are against <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">Obama</span> ....go figure. I find its easier to get a vicious argument from " Christians " about Gun Control than it is to get a disscussion about sharing your wealth with others less fortunate ... Im not sure why we have such a love for guns in this country but it does seem to border on Idol worship </div><br /><br /><div>Lori and I saw Wall E and loved it ....gets a huge thumbs up from both of us.</div><br /><br /><div>Kenn</div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div></div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-21959444408517299662008-06-24T12:43:00.000-07:002008-06-24T13:17:22.785-07:00Looking Back ......more<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SGFWRIj9zvI/AAAAAAAAADg/ImFdve4incw/s1600-h/Barn+on+the+Cumberland+plateau+,+Tennessee.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5215544695827844850" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SGFWRIj9zvI/AAAAAAAAADg/ImFdve4incw/s320/Barn+on+the+Cumberland+plateau+,+Tennessee.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>That summer in Oklahoma was like a graduation present from my parents for completing Grade School. I suspect that in <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">today's</span> world you would never send your 13 year old child , boy or girl on a three Bus trip across country. </div><br /><br /><div>But 1959 was a simpler time ...and a harder time as well. I remember constantly looking out the windows , taking in as much of the scenery as I could ...I enjoyed the different stops , I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">especially</span> remembered Salt Lake city and seeing the Mormon Temple there ...and wondering where the lake was.</div><br /><br /><div>From Oklahoma City to <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Muldrow</span> was a few hours drive it was night and there was a fierce storm lighting our way , on one occasion I know I saw a lightning bolt hit so close to the bus that the pavement was bone dry when the bus raced over it.</div><br /><br /><div>Late that night my Uncle peeked into the bus and shouted my name , and I left the bus an onto a summers adventure in the land of my Mothers birth.</div><br /><br /><div>My uncles name was Mel , he was the town barber in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Muldrow</span> , he smelled of hair tonic and shaving cream, had a twinkle in his eye , and an easy way with <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">conversation</span>. His wife was my mothers Sisters , Aunt Alice , Aunt Alice is still alive , the last of four children born in the hard times of hard scrabble , storm tossed , Oklahoma. She looks <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">alot</span> like my mother , younger , and less weary , My mother had two boys , Alice and Mel had no children.</div><br /><br /><div><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Muldrow</span> Oklahoma is a small town , a very small town , my mother had one Brother Otis who had nine children and one brother James who had two children , then two more . Several of Otis Children were close to my age and we spent that summer adjusting to being teenagers. </div><br /><br /><div>There are a few memories from that summer , driving a tractor , <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">poisonus</span> snakes , foul tasting well water , <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">catfishing</span> at night watching a tornado head our way. That summer I found how how blessed I was living in Oregon. </div><br /><br /><div>Mel and Alice were pretty comfortable , with no children and a corner on the Barber shop trade , they lived well within their means. Otis was a different story , <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">likable</span> , but indifferent to work , Otis was an <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">inconsistent</span> provider. The children lived a hard life , those things I took for granted like candy bars , and bottled cokes were rare treats for his kids. There was occasional Ice Cream but it was handmade , and the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">hand making</span> was difficult work. </div><br /><br /><div>And there was more ...there was a poverty of education , I must have sounded like an Ivy <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">league</span> professor to those <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">nieces</span> and nephews and they didn't care much for professors ...they were disdainful and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">untrusting</span> of education , <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">preferring</span> the " street " smarts of a city that had few streets. </div><br /><br /><div>And by their standards I must have been quite a nerd , struggling with hay bales , driving the tractor into the pond, and putting a hole in a 50 gallon oil drum while target practicing for a planned squirrel hunt.</div><br /><br /><div>The Squirrel hunt turned out to be a turning point , they had armed me with a 22 while they carried shotguns, they knew I would be at a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">disadvantage</span> with the single shot rifle, yet when it was over I had two squirrels to my credit and the three cousins that adventured out with me had none. </div><br /><br /><div>I have to thank my dad for that ...he was a very good hunter and taught my brother and I how to shoot and shoot well . We trained on a single shot 22 and learned to make one shot the right shot. </div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-3552076892368051812008-06-18T14:03:00.000-07:002008-06-18T14:36:55.151-07:00Water over the Edge<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFl44cdcsjI/AAAAAAAAADY/ut4fn9dotLg/s1600-h/Rock+Island+State+Park+Tennessee+a.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5213330954765775410" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFl44cdcsjI/AAAAAAAAADY/ut4fn9dotLg/s320/Rock+Island+State+Park+Tennessee+a.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>A few days ago I started looking back ...today I realized I hadn't looked far enough back, then I found this old letter I wrote just after my mother died on the computer...I think its a good time to share it:</div><br /><div></div><br /><div><em>January 29, 2001<br />Today I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">received</span> a copy of my birth certificate via Fed Ex. I needed a copy for my new job and we could not locate our important papers, so Lori called the Vital Records Department in Denver, Colorado, and they sent it out to us.<br />When I opened the blue and red express envelope there was a very official document authenticating my birth. I entered this world at 4:10 in the morning of October 14, 1947. My mother was 29 at the time and my father was 33.<br />I was thinking of them when I started to cry, John Herbert <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Stilger</span> and Emma Lucy Keith. John from Portland, Oregon, and Emma from <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Muldrow</span>, Oklahoma.<br />They met in a shipyard in Vallejo, California, about 1943. My mother was a riveter in the shipyards that were cranking out Liberty Ships as fast as Nike pops out tennis shoes. My father worked on the high steel, welding plates together; they met at lunch time. My father said, "She stole a banana from me." They were married in Vallejo. After the war, Dad and Mom moved to Climax, Colorado, where Dad worked in an open pit molybdenum mine.<br />The fact that they met in Vallejo was one of those "cosmic accidents" that happen every day: woman from the Ozarks, leaves home, travels by bus 2000 miles away, finds herself in the middle of a labor shortage, and is immediately put to work building cargo ships - most of which were bigger than the town she called home. Man from Oregon, takes a train out of Portland and spends most of the trip hanging onto the rods under the boxcar, works on the Golden Gate Bridge and Hoover Dam - then when War with Japan breaks out, he is drafted not into the military, but into the hazardous occupation of working suspended several floors above the ground strapped to metal girders wrapped with asbestos. After several months salvaging what can be salvaged of a ravaged navel fleet, he is shipped back to Mare Island Navy Yard where he catches this young beauty from the hills of Oklahoma slipping a banana out of his lunch.<br />I wonder what it must have been like that early morning in October. Was the morning about to give way to a day warmed by the last of the heat-drenched winds of the Colorado plains, or had the winter that would soon come, filled the streets of Denver with an icy breath ? What hopes and dreams lay in my mother's heart as she cradled me close to her and smiled at my face as I nursed? Was my father able to spend some time with her and me, or was he called back to labor drawing the important alloy from the earth?<br />4:10 a.m., and there they were. Two of millions; young, full of life and hopes and dreams, living in land that had tasted the bittersweet taste of victory. The <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">darkhaired</span> part Native American girl and the well tanned curly haired man, confronted with this new and precious child that would in time bring them joy and grief, purpose and confusion. 4:10 a.m.: the world outside was barely stirring, perhaps a few lights were snapping on as fathers woke to <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">insistant</span> alarms and mothers heeded the infants' cries that nudged them from sleep. Later that day in a desert to the west, Chuck Yeager would climb into a jet aircraft and punch a hole in the sky and be the first ever man to break the sound barrier. 4:10 a.m.: the earth spinning, turning into the miracle that is the star we call the sun - but at that time there is no hint of the light to come, only the promise and reassurance of several thousands of such <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">rotations</span>. Stars and planets kept the Denver landscape company.<br />Later as I grew, I would stare at these same stars and planets; I would catch the vapor trail of a speeding jet illuminated by the moon, and can remember the occasional sonic boom as some <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">airborn</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">jocky</span> would follow Mr Yeager through that hole in the sky.<br />My parents grew older with me. My father found work in Oregon, so the Colorado winters gave way to the temperate Northwest. He worked as a lineman for Portland General Electric, and my mother cared for both my younger brother and I, becoming an expert with cupcake baking and flashcards. And we all grew older together - only I never noticed them aging only me as I grew from toddler to brat to teenager. Those years seem squandered now: a few memories - my father showing me how to catch a ground ball, my mother slicing potatoes into slabs. And I remember popcorn and movies with my mother, and a Lincoln log set I got for Christmas one year.<br />Soon family weekends and vacations gave way to spending all my time at my girlfriend's house. A new war came, and I stayed home and got married - and then one day I helped my brother, family and friends say goodbye to my father.<br />I remember the last time I saw him. He had come home from the hospital to die. We had the bed in the living room and his youngest brother had made the trip from Dallas, Texas, to say goodbye. Dad could not swallow; the cancer had taken his <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">strength</span>, his breath, and his wonderful curly black hair. He begged for a piece of cheese and cracker, then choked on it; Mom cleared his throat. I lived in a trailer home in the Portland suburbs. That night, I sat outside on the swing for a few minutes and watched the stars. It was late, with only stars and planets and a feeble moon to keep me company. The phone rang and it was all over: he had gone away.<br />My mother never remarried; she lived with her memories of that handsome young man for 25 years. The last time I saw her, I watched the moon slip past Mt. Spokane - and now she is gone. They were 29 and 33 when they held me freshly-birthed in the morning hours. Now it's my turn to hold them: glimpses and memories, a few photos, a letter here and a cigarette lighter from his championship little league team he coached so graciously.<br />Emma Lucy Keith, John Herbert <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Stilger</span>. This earth is merciless in its turning; this spinning planet devours time and lives. We grow old as Eternity lies clouded and veiled from our understanding, and the stars and planets rush up each dusk to wink at us with promise.<br />4:10 a.m. October 14, 1947. The day is soon to begin; there are sound barriers to break and wars to weep over. And love looks from father's face to mother's face, and into the newborn eyes ready to open to planets and stars, baseball <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">mitts</span> and frosted cupcakes. </em><br /></div><div><em></em></div><br /><div><em></em></div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-43268494214174618592008-06-16T20:53:00.000-07:002008-06-16T22:09:22.362-07:00Looking Back<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFdGfror_gI/AAAAAAAAADQ/XIAmYwsEPns/s1600-h/Diversity.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212712603807907330" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFdGfror_gI/AAAAAAAAADQ/XIAmYwsEPns/s320/Diversity.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><strong>Galatians 3:28</strong></div><br /><br /><div><strong>There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.<br /></strong></div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><div></div><div>When we first moved to Nashville I was surprise to see how segrated the churches were. I have heard it said that Sunday is the most segregated day in the South. From my own evidence I would have to agree with this. </div><div>I don't understand why. I have also heard the segregation is mutual . Likewise I have no evidence to dissagree with that.</div><div>If you were born after 1970 I suspect it is very difficult for you to fully understand just how painful , angry and divisive the fight for intergration and racial equality was. My parents were segregationists , I would like to believe that neither my father or mother would have never participated or support racial violence , but they were certianly unwilling to do anything to change it.</div><div>My mother was from Oklahoma and was culturally disposed towards racism , my father seemed indifferent, but I also overheard him tell many jokes at the " expense " of black people.</div><div>Both of my parents urged me to proceed with caution when I became involved in the Civil Rights movement , and for reasons I cannot truly remember our home never had a black visitor.</div><div>I remember vividly the first time I really came face to face with the ugly reality of Segragation.</div><div>Living in Oregon we were largly divorced from the struggles in the North and the South. There were a few black people living in Oregon , but not in our neighborhoods. </div><div>The Summer between my eighth grade graduation and my first year in High School I spent the summer in Oklahoma ...this was 1960. I traveled to Oklahoma alone on a Greyhound Bus. When the Bus stopped in Oklahoma City near the end of my trip I needed to use the Bathroom in the Train station. There were three bathrooms there , they were marked : White women , White men , and Colored. I didn't get it I choose colored , when I walked out a man in uniform stopped me and asked me why I did that , I joked I was Pink . He wasn't amused , he thumped on a Bible He was carrying and said " well you must not be a Christian then ". </div><div>Prior to that time I had not thought much about Christians and " race " . I had as a youngster assumed that the Church was the moral guardian of society and having heard very little from the Pulpit on this issue I guess I just assumed all was well ....Likewise I assumed that if there was a problem and some of Americas Citizens were being mistreated because of their skin color that the Goverment that represented us would do something about it. I had no reason to believe that these two institutions , the Church and the State instead of leading America out of this growing cancer of segration and inequality would actually participate and contribute to the problem. </div><div>As the demand for racial equality began to swell and build I spent my High School years almost oblivious to the first tremors of change. For two years I went to Benson High School in Portland Oregon. My parents wanted me to go to this school because if its Advanced Science Programs , Science was an Area I excelled in , I didn't excell in Shop class. ( Seventh and Eigth Graders in the 50's went to either Shop class ( boys ) or Home Economics ( girls ) . What my parents hadn't planned was that Benson was one all day Shop class. In the two years I went to Benson I Failed Welding, Aeronautics, Automotive, Machine Shop, Sheet Metal and Foundery classes , while getting a smatering of A's in Biology and Physics . </div><div>Benson was a " segragated " school with just about equal number of blacks and whites. I have no memory of any racial incidents while at Benson. It was at this time that I developed a reputation for getting in fights , I was constantly brawling with kids much bigger than me , Usually kids who because of their size and physicality liked to push other kids around ...I set a record at Benson I believed I had only lost about 17 of the 18 tiffs I was in ...It took me two years to really embrace passive resistance. Two years several broken noses , a couple of cut lips and an unfortunate nickname of Rocky ( not for the fighter but for the racoon ). </div><div> </div><div>to be continued .... </div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-45818459753115490222008-06-15T18:31:00.000-07:002008-06-15T20:27:08.286-07:00The Holyness of God and Hair shirts<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFXSl51ZHWI/AAAAAAAAADI/AczfMTDWebY/s1600-h/Holy+,+holy+,+holy.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212303692372974946" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFXSl51ZHWI/AAAAAAAAADI/AczfMTDWebY/s320/Holy+,+holy+,+holy.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div>Human kind has tried some very interesting ways to be holy and pure ...Hair shirts are just one such example, hair shirts A garment of rough cloth made from goats' hair and worn in the form of a shirt or as a girdle around the loins, by way of Mortification and penance.</div><div>While this may seem silly there are lots of interesting traditions and practices that all seek to make oneself " pure and holy " there is only one problem with these practices.</div><div>Early this week I was very blessed to spend some time at lunch with a very dear Christian Brother , not only was the food good and the conversation great , but he picked up the Tab.</div><div>Anyway during our conversation we found an area we <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">disagreed</span> on ..not unusual we disagree on several things ..but we have learned to disagree agreeably. We disagreed this time on the use of Secular Music in Worship...and the singing of Christian songs by non Christians ...my friend things both of these things " profane and defile " the worship <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">experience</span>. I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">disagreed</span> , but it wasn't until <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">today's</span> Church service that I fully understood why.</div><div>Today our Pastor began a new Sermon Series on <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Holiness</span>, and he began with this Scripture from Acts 10: 9-15<br /></div><div><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">Peter's Vision </span></strong></div><div><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">About noon the following day as they were on their journey and approaching the city, Peter went up on the roof to pray. 10He became hungry and wanted something to eat, and while the meal was being prepared, he fell into a trance. He saw heaven opened and something like a large sheet being let down to earth by its four corners. It contained all kinds of four-footed animals, as well as reptiles of the earth and birds of the air. Then a voice told him, "Get up, Peter. Kill and eat."<br />"Surely not, Lord!" Peter replied. "I have never eaten anything impure or unclean."<br />The voice spoke to him a second time, "Do not call anything impure that God has made clean."</span></strong><br /></div><div><strong>"</strong> do not call anything impure that God has made clean " Interesting....how often have you met Christians who refuse to celebrate Christmas , because of its pagan roots ? Or Easter , or refuse to have anything to do with Halloween ?</div><div><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Aren't</span> these well meaning worshipers missing a point about Gods <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Holiness</span> ? Isn't my friend in this case ?</div><div>How are we made Holy ? How is a place made holy ? Can we create a place of Holy Ground ?</div><div>The answer has to be sneaking up on us. It is God who makes us Holy , it is God who makes a place Holy by His presence , and God can use anything and anyone for His purposes ....Did God choose an Aristocratic horse to speak , no he used a donkey, Did God speak out of a lovely rose bush to Moses ? or was it some non<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">discript</span> desert bush ? God could have used one of Jesus <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">Disciples</span> to go unto the Gentiles , instead He choose a Man who was known for his Brutality toward the Followers of Christ.</div><div>Most of us as Christians <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">believe</span> we are saved by Grace not by our works , and while we may fudge a little on the works issue , we do I think <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">ultimately</span> understand that Salvation is from Jesus First and Last. with no assistance on our own. We are told to seek to be Holy , but Only God can consecrate us. Sinners cannot call on God for Salvation unless God has already <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">begun</span> this work of making us Holy. </div><div>If we are seeking God with all our hearts , I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">believe</span> God can use secular music , as easily as he uses sacred music to bring us closer to Him. In fact the reality is that God is in all and through all , there is no " secular and sacred " If we divide the days into one for sacred and six for secular we are short changing God six whole days.</div><div>If we celebrate Christmas, Halloween, Easter and Celebrate for Gods Glory , if we use these days to Praise God for Blessings ...will we be seeking God and His Holiness ? I beleive so.</div><div>This all makes me wonder ....while God can make Holy and use for His Glory anything and anyone, is there any chance that we as His servants can actually defile and profane Him by misusing the Holy ?</div><div>Here I am speaking of using the Bible to promote division , to promote consumerism , to promote Nationalistic ambitions . Most of us know that at one point the Bible was used to justify Slavery , there are some who use the Bible to Justify hatred towards Homosexuals , some use it to Justify the accumulation of wealth .... I wonder how God feels about that ?</div><div>Lets seek God with all our hearts , lets take every opportunity to tell others of His great love for us and lets Reclaim the Arts for the Glory of God .</div><div>I am looking forward to my next conversation with my friend and I plan to pick up the tab this next time , and I am looking forward to more discussions as well ....<br /></div><div>Kenn</div><div></div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-79896004534779893582008-06-12T19:17:00.000-07:002008-06-12T20:04:44.393-07:00The Commonality of Diversity<div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFHY8nMI5QI/AAAAAAAAAC4/zpzu-yT5oH0/s1600-h/Wing.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5211184779668022530" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFHY8nMI5QI/AAAAAAAAAC4/zpzu-yT5oH0/s320/Wing.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div><strong><em><span style="font-size:130%;">Psalm 19<br />For the director of music. A psalm of David. The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands. Day after day they pour forth speech: night after night they display knowledge. There is no speech or language where their voice is not heard.</span> </em></strong></div><br /><div><strong><em></em></strong></div><br /><div><strong><em></em></strong></div><br /><div>What do , Fingerprints , Sunset's , Snowflakes, raindrops, DNA , grains of sand , ocean waves, Butterflies , flowers , clouds, trees... all have in common ? </div><br /><div>They were created by God. According the Scriptures , these things all show us something about God ...they show me that God loves diversity , not only between things that are singularly different , like a grain of sand and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">butterfly</span> wing ,but even more interesting even the butterfly wing and the grain of sand are unique from <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">every other</span> butterfly wing and grain of sand. </div><br /><div>We know from watching <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">CSI</span> that no two fingerprints are alike , no two strands of DNA are alike.</div><br /><div>While each snow flake is a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">separate</span> masterpiece , there is a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">familiarity</span> with Snow that we <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">immediately</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">recognize</span> it.</div><br /><div>God not only created all the Diversity and wonder in the Universe , but each individual creation is a unique creation of its own. </div><br /><div>So I am wondering ...while the Church of Christ is unique and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">spacial</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">among</span> all Faiths , why is it we sometimes insist that all <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Believers</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">believe</span> the same ?</div><br /><div>Isn't this <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">insistence</span> the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">reason</span> we have so many denominations and doctrines ? And if this is the case , and all these differences of Opinion are part of Gods creation His unique template of thought for each and everyone of us , then why does this difference in <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">belief</span> often times become so divisive ? </div><br /><div>Each wave that comes ashore is different from the one before and the one behind it , yet these waves wear down the land , the sand and dust left <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">being</span> swept up by the winds ,provide the seed for the snow that falls to earth...the snow and rain that falls to earth , nurtures the land , the trees , and soils and plants provide substance for the animals , we ourselves are fed by this process...we live in a theistic harmony ....and yet as humans we spend most of our lives in disharmony with each other ...</div><br /><div>we see the differences of thought and belief as an attack on our selves , not for what they truly are the heavenly fingerprints of our Heavenly father... Our differences are as God given as our similarities and as such our differences should be cherished, nurtured and embraced. Not expelled , shut out or fought over ....</div><div>How appropriate that each day ends with a sunset which is different from the day before and begins with a Sunrise different from the past dawn, God has revealed Himself to us in a creation that is refreshingly diverse , yet similar. Maybe God has a good idea working here ...</div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFHiM_Htp6I/AAAAAAAAADA/4r9G5rQvcRw/s1600-h/End+of+Day+end+of+Post.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5211194956574468002" style="CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFHiM_Htp6I/AAAAAAAAADA/4r9G5rQvcRw/s320/End+of+Day+end+of+Post.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFHiM_Htp6I/AAAAAAAAADA/4r9G5rQvcRw/s1600-h/End+of+Day+end+of+Post.jpg"></a> </div></div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-38109528858890875322008-06-12T11:49:00.000-07:002008-06-12T12:06:56.635-07:00Happy Birthday Lori !<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFFwZWmZwsI/AAAAAAAAACw/bOHc_Px7Jqo/s1600-h/HAPPY+BIRTHDAY.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5211069824710066882" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SFFwZWmZwsI/AAAAAAAAACw/bOHc_Px7Jqo/s320/HAPPY+BIRTHDAY.jpg" border="0" /></a> It is time to pause from the heady world of Theology and Musing , and simply give thanks !<br />And <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">today</span> on her Birthday I am giving thanks for my wife . I frequently say that Gods greatest gift to me was my wife Lori, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">unfortunately</span> for Lori I am Gods <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">greatest</span> test for her.<br />Throughout , my seeking my study , my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">analyzing</span> , my Don <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Quiote</span> moments she has stood fast by me. There <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">certainly</span> has been some comedy involved , but some <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">sadness</span> as well.<br />It hasn't always been easy .... Not that I am comparing myself to a Prophet , but if you can have any idea what it must of been like to be <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">Ezekiel's</span> wife , then you might have some sincere Sympathy for Lori .<br />and its not just Politics and religion she has to put up with. I have a strange sense of humor , and odd sense of timing and any thing edible seems to give me gas ...<br />I have night terrors at night ( when else ) . I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">occasionally</span> watch the road when I drive , and my " shortcuts " usually add two hours to a day trip.<br />I am unorganized , losing my hearing , and have been known to get more than one days use out of a pair of socks.<br />where I have ways , I am set in them , and where I have no ways ...there is no way.<br />And Lori bears all this ...with patience and an occasional Head <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">thwap</span>. ( mine ) but do you blame her ? and I forgive her.<br />She is steadfast in her faith , a dear friend to all , she is a Giver , she embraces life , has a wonderful laugh , and sings like a choir of Angels ...<br />She is a great cook , and when she Bakes Chocolate Chip Cookies the world itself takes a deep breath and smiles .<br />She is my wife , companion , lover and encourager ...She is the face of Christ for me ...and I am so blessed by her love ...<br />Happy Birthday Lori !!!!!!!<br /><br />Always and Forever KennKenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-87507988565246432192008-06-10T06:24:00.000-07:002008-06-10T07:23:02.895-07:00<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SE6NvtYhPuI/AAAAAAAAACA/lfgjIxcBvDw/s1600-h/Seeking+God.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5210257669690048226" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SE6NvtYhPuI/AAAAAAAAACA/lfgjIxcBvDw/s320/Seeking+God.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>There are times when I decide to choose what I think God would want me to do and painfully I find I am on a side road looking over at God as he hurtles down the Freeway. I am also <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">convinced</span> when I see God in these cases He is smiling at me ..and riding a Harley. </div><br /><div>The past few weeks have been a good example of this. within a few days of the Green Hill Ambush I had determined ( without consulting God ) to get over the issue , move on, and Let God take care of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">business</span>. I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">sincerely</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">believe</span> God has a different Idea. </div><br /><div>On the day of the " correction in my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">belief</span> " I was told that one " proof " of the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">fallacy</span> of Calvinism was the decline of new Calvinists. As if God is looking for Quantity ....And as if you can measure the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">effectiveness</span> of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">Evangelism</span> by the number of Baptisms and Conversions. </div><br /><div>Anyway the next day..I read in the paper that the Southern Baptist President is <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">concerned</span> that unless the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">SBC</span> changes its ways it will be half the size it is in a decade.</div><br /><div>I carefully looked through the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">Internet</span> to find a Church I might be interested in attending and the one I zeroed in on I sent an Email for more information and still have not had a reply, but the church we decided to go to just " for the fun of it " now looks like a great haven for us .</div><br /><div>I again choose to put the " ambush " behind me ..only to pick up the paper and read that the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">SBC</span> ( our former denomination ) is choosing which Baptisms to honor and which to not honor...clearly <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">unscriptual</span>. </div><br /><div><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">Phone calls</span>, Letters, emails , newspaper articles ....I Just don't think God wants me to be finished with this <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">business</span> at <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">GHBC</span> ..and I don't think its my Ego getting in the way either ...I really want to walk away ...but I am not sure its possible. </div><br /><div>The more I find out , the more that trickles out of the wall of silence and self deception from this Church, makes me realize that this kind of behaviour thrives like mold in the dark and secret places of the foundation.</div><br /><div>I am not sure where all this is Going but I need to pay careful attention to what God's will is in this matter , and to amp up my prayer life with Him . </div><br /><div>This morning I woke up deciding to write about " what should a church be " and instead this is what seemed to come crashing out ... Kenn</div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8713369071528474563.post-54196652629716843202008-06-09T05:59:00.000-07:002008-06-09T06:17:48.841-07:00Canned Asapargus and looking a fish in the eye ...<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SE0pVshZvEI/AAAAAAAAAB4/X_I5nBtnog8/s1600-h/Good+Fish+Bad+Fish.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5209865796642782274" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_mWuzh5Yd3Ug/SE0pVshZvEI/AAAAAAAAAB4/X_I5nBtnog8/s320/Good+Fish+Bad+Fish.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Yesterday was a wonderful day for Lori and I. We had decided to go to a Church several miles away in a town called <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Symrna</span>. we were familiar with the Church because we had seen a couple of plays there , and my friend and business contact at a Photography business that hires me for free lance work goes to the Church. </div><div>The church believes mightily in using the Arts for the Glory of God. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Their</span> productions are excellent , the sanctuary itself is the Theater. The Church is an Assembly of God , and the worship is spirited and vibrant.</div><div>Lori and I used to go to an Assembly when we lived in Oregon , Interestingly enough there are many 4 square and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">AOG</span> churches in Oregon , and in all we visited we found the worship to be passionate and personal. I suspect we forgot that here in Tennessee. That being the " personal and vibrant part of worship. Lori thinks perhaps it is because we have so many gifted musicians in the state that the congregation seems to approach worship more as a spectator sport than a participation <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">exercises</span>. What ever the reason it was like the difference between Canned <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Asparagus</span> and fresh Asparagus to me . I wanted to take a picture of a can of asparagus and a fresh clump of same , but since we had just filled our gas tank I was light on cash. so I noticed this old stock photo of mine of two fish in the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Fish market</span>. I think it will work just fine. </div><div>At first glance these two fish look similar , but a close side my side examination will show one fish to have a dull eye and scales and the other the eye is bright and clear and the scales look sharper and filled with color. That fish is fresh...and fresh fish taste better. You can survive on the other , but once you had fresh fish or fresh <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">asparagus</span> you will try to avoid the canned.</div><div>The worship <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">experience</span> in the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">Symrna</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Assembly</span> was fresh, the focus was not on the Praise band , it wasn't on the singers , the focus seemed to be on God . The praise <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">flowed</span> through the congregation into the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">Heavenlies</span> , and it felt <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">wonder full</span> to be in this House of worship.</div><div>I have been telling myself that what I need is a Church with a Good Bible Study I know realize that God is letting me know that I need a Church with a heart for worship.</div><div></div><div>Kenn</div><div></div><div></div>Kenn K Stilgerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12833352207729360602noreply@blogger.com2